Now what? The heat of the battle is over. The battlefield has been cleared. All is quiet. Everyone has gone home.
Except for you.
As caretakers we spend months and months researching, driving to vet appointments, getting and giving the best food, some cooking, counter full of meds and supplements, and then all of a sudden it is done. No fanfare. No ticker parade. It’s just over. Our caretaker duties are done. Our loved one is gone. Our hearts are broken and empty.
And for my B’s blog page. I no longer have updates on her progress or her crazy antics. No more bubble videos.
Please don’t get me wrong. I am doing ok. I am healing. But there is much to be patched up.
And as for my blog, I just don’t want my baby forgotten. Because I will never forget her. I will always love her.
Karma
Yes, Karma, the loss of our job is sometimes the biggest change we notice. Especially if our job entailed lots of food prep for a picky eater and meds to be administered at different times of day. I’ve heard from others who said they stood around not knowing what to do with themselves.
As much as you had your job, Brendol had hers. I think she did it well and knew she could leave you in the capable hands of the rest of your pack. She was tired and needed her rest, and she taught everyone else how to take good care of you. I think she would be pleased that you are here, continuing to help others. I appreciate you being here, even though I know it must be hard at times.
Shari
Thank you Shari. And we are blessed to still have you here helping all of us.
Karma,
You couldn’t have said it better today. I know exactly what you mean when you say this. I know Shari is right too. Even though it is hard but you are helping others
Hugs
Michelle & Angel Sassy
Michelle, I know you too are feeling this battle forelorn-ness (yes it’s a word, in my vocabulary). Thank you for being a friend. Sassy and Jilly were chemo buddies and now Brendol and Sassy are bridge buddies.
Your baby will never be forgotten. Not by you, not by this community. It takes a long time to heal. Just remember that healing is not forgetting, but remembering…remembering the happy and funny times. As you heal, your pain will lessen, and you will smile when you think of happy memories.
Thank you for sharing your knowledge and experience with others. It is appreciated and admired.
Carol
Did you say no more bubbles?? No you didn’t! You did NOT say that!
Looked what dropped from the sky tonight!! Now, who do you think had a “paw” in makng this happen?? Oh yeah, Brendol’s blog is still going sgrong and so is Brendol!! Brendol is ALWAYS with us!
http://s1351.photobucket.com/user/salholladay55/media/IMG_20130909_184000_zps2cae8761.jpg.html
Aw Sally, thank you so much. That is one gigantic bubble there. I hope Hannah is having a “ball” with it. 😉
Karma-
You have said it exactly. Brendol and her bubbles will always be here. I love when her banner comes up with bubbles everywhere. As long as she is remembered in just one heart she is here.
Thinking of you-
Luanne and Spirit Shooter
Thanks Luanne. I hope you are doing well. Always thinking of you and Shooter.
Karma… keep going with Brandols blog.. please do! Please!!
share your memories.. share funny stories… share those wonderful pictures…
trust me.. it is a beautiful memory to keep of a beautiful dogger!
it’s therapy… it helps in healing.. and it does your soul good to share her beauty with all of us…
we love to share things that we love… and our furbabies are right up there in the top three….. ok.. well maybe the first one.. lol
Christine….. with Franklin in her heart♥
I agree that the loss of all of the routines that consumed our lives is one of the hardest things to accept when the battle is over. It takes time to re-fill those moments with other things but I see that you are doing a great job by observing your packs behavior and writing about it so beautifully in Addy’s blog. In time, the good times fill that void, you’re getting there.
Please know that Brendol will NEVER be forgotten, that’s why these blogs exist, that’s why we are here. Each amazing spirit like hers continues to spread the love and pawsitive energy on this planet, giving hope and strength to others.
Thats so how I feel and think! I would do it all over again too for my baby Leo. Thanks for sharing this and letting me know Im not alone. Leo and our other fur babies were our life but when Leo had his surgery he became 100% of our time, energy, life, love everything. While Sadie took the back burner for awhile. Then he was gone and there was all this time on our hands. The first Friday I freaked because we went to the vet every Friday. What was I to do? So I started taking Sadie hiking at waterfall glenn and off trailing. now its winter and almost christmas again what do I do. There is that hole. This whole experience changed me as a person and how I see certain things in my life. Leo taught me courage, whats important and anything can happen. He kept a positive attitude, that happy go lucky spirit of his, the “so what mom Life is good and Look I am just as handsome if not more on 3 legs as I was 4” I spent so much around the clock with him we bonded on a whole other level. I dont ever want to forget what his fur felt like, smelled like, looked like. I ache for him, every day and still talk about him as he is still here. I know I am rambling but this is the first time I have been able to put my thoughts together and say this. Thanks for sharing and whoever reads this Thank you for reading it. Because we all have something in common and we know what its like. We share a bond even though we may not know eachother. I keep everyone in my prayers. God Bless
Sherry (Leo’s mom)