Month: October 2013

Brendol, I miss you.

Fall is always hard for me.  I love the smells and coolness in the air, but it makes my heart heavy and brings tears easily to my eyes.  And over the last 12 years, it was a day and night like tonight that I would have curled myself up on the couch with you and held you close.  Feeling your heartbeat next to mine, made the pain less.  And now, you are no longer here for me to hold.

I really have been doing ok.  But I miss you and there are moments that I just can’t keep up the brave face.  Adelaide keeps me busy with her antics and Aissa continues to be my loving wiggle butt, but nopawdy is my baby B.  My best hope is that I will dream of you tonight and in my slumber I can once again hold you in my arms.

It’s hard to believe, but it has already been two months since Brendol left.  If still feels like yesterday.  And today was a beautiful and cool October day, which would have been a day that Brendol would have loved playing outside and then snuggling up with me on the couch as we watched terrible sci-fi flicks.

We are all moving on as we should.  But there isn’t a day that I don’t think about my baby B.  May she be happy and healthy, playing with all her friends at the bridge.