All My Loving

I’ve talked to many of you in the chatroom, but for those that haven’t been in and seen me for a while, I just wanted to let everyone know that Brendol’s fight is coming to an end.

Last week I took her back to her vet and we found that the cancer had metastasized to her lungs.  Additionally, it must be elsewhere in the bones causing her pain.  I was on my way out of town, so they gave us Rimadyl, Tramadol, and Gab to keep her comfortable.  She stayed with her pet sitters and when I left her she was wagging her tail and happy to see all her friends.  They kept me updated every morning and evening.  She ate really well.  Tonight I got back and went to pick her up and her sisters.  When I got there, she tried to stand up and couldn’t.  The pet sitter said she was having some issues, but eventually able to get the legs working and that they had just given her her medicine so she might just be groggy.

I’ve gotten her home.  Carried her upstairs and laid her in bed.  She didn’t even fight me being carried and she has always hated to be carried.  I have called in to work so that I may spend a last day with her cuddled up.  I will call the vet in the morning to arrange an afternoon appointment.  I am fairly calm, but my heart is breaking.  She is my baby girl and I don’t want to lose her.  But I can’t let her suffer any and if she can’t stand up, she’s not living a good life.  I will miss her so very much.  Please keep us in your thoughts.

Author: Karma

My furry family and I live in Atlanta. I care for a 12 year old pittbull mix (Brendol) who underwent an amputation of her front right leg for bone cancer. I also care for a 10 1/2 year old chow/border collie mix (Aissa) and two sister cats that are 3 (Mathilde and Morrigan).

16 thoughts on “All My Loving”

  1. Karma,
    Brendol is one special lady. She had fought the good fight. Taught Addy how to take care of you. You will see her in Addy & her mannerisms. Maybe not at first because of the grief but slowly you will see little pieces. Hug her for Sassy & I. Special hugs to you. My heart breaks as I was hoping that you guys would be one of the lucky ones.

    Michelle & Sassy

  2. Brendol’s picture has been my wallpaper on my computer screen since the week before my Angel’s amputation three week’s ago when you were one of the first tripawd parents to alleviate some of my fears, and she will continue to be the first picture I look at everytime I turn on my computer. Her happy face was so beautiful that it let me know I was doing the right thing. You are in my thoughts.

  3. Karma, our hearts have broken into a million pieces, we are so sorry. Nothing much can make this easier, we know, but we hope that the collective arms of this community will carry you through the grief you are about to face.

    Brendol’s life has been amazing and it’s because of the love you so freely gave to her, and vice versa. Love that strong never fades, and you take those lessons with you forever. I hope this thought brings you some comfort as you cope with the coming days and weeks ahead.

    We are so very, very sorry.

  4. my heart is so broken over this Karma. From the moment I read that “just keep swimming” post you wrote, I knew you and Brendol were two wonderful wonderful souls. I don’t have the adequate words to say. Please know that I am here for you. I truly consider you a lifelong friend now – it absolutely sucks that we had to become friends because of this, but maybe that is the silver lining in all of this?
    You gave Brendol a truly beautiful, wonderful life. She put up a good fight and the love you have for her has been clear to all of us from the very beginning of your journey.

    We will all be thinking of you tomorrow. Brendol will forever be in my heart now, she’s truly earned a special place there.

    All my love,

  5. Like everyone here, if we could all be by your side right now we would. We can’t.

    You can be present with Brendol though, just like you have been during this whole journey. You two will always be inseparable…always be together.

    Brendol has given us all incredible joy, laughter and so much hope. It is an honor to be on this journey with Brendol, you and the whole pack. A true honor.

    May you spend whatever time you have together wrapped in love, serenity and the knowing that all is well with Brendol. She is with you and that’s all that matters.

    “All my loving…..I will send to you……”

    Sally and Happy Hannah

  6. Just wanted to add that maybe tonight Brendol is a little too drugged based on what your sitter said. So maybe you’ll have even more time once that wears off.

    You re showing incredible strength and grace while your heart is breakng. Yo are continuing to give Brendol the best of you…and that’s a wnderful gift of love.

  7. Karma I am so sad for you. I always knew that soon after each of Shooter’s ampuversaries that we would get to celebrate with Brendol next and we will celebrate her no matter what.

    Give Brendol lots of hugs and you also.

    Luanne and Shooter

  8. Karma, I’m thinking of you guys today. Brendol is a really special gal and we will be here for you no matter what.

    Sending lots of love from Roxy and me.

  9. You know I know exactly where you are…. I know exactly how you feel.. I know the pain that is tearing your heart in two and the love that pulls it bak together again. I know exactly how angry, pissed, upset, frustrated and torn you are.. I know.. dear lady I know..
    It is so hard to let them go because our selfishness wants one more day, one more snuggle, on more night of cuddles. But our love tells us it is time because we don’t want them suffering, and I think we don’t want to remember their last few days with us in pain and poor quality.
    You were all there for me when I went through this with my Franklin… and still are… and we will all be here for you too. You know that.
    Brendol is a special lady… she’s your sweetie… and you are giving her so much love today that she will run free knowing that she was one of the best loved doggers in the world!! And not just by you, but by all of us who have read her story and watched her bubble videos and laughed and smiled at her pictures..
    She holds a warm place in all of us… and I will tell you that tears are on my cheeks right now as I type this..
    You know that you are doing the most unselfish, loving thing and so does she. You know that she will love you to the last beat of her heart.. and she knows that you will love her always.
    you are in my thoughts today…. *hugs*

  10. Adding my voice to all the others sending you hugs and hearts and wishing you peace. You made the hardest decision out of love to give her the greatest mercy. Sending healing thoughts on the wind; run free, little Brendol!

    -Liz and Roxie

  11. Karma,

    I’m so very sorry that it is Brendol’s time to make her journey to Rainbow Bridge. In time, may happy memories of your girl bring smiles and fill the huge empty hole in your heart.

    Godspeed sweet Brendol. Run free with all of the heroes that have gone before you. Please send your mommy pennies so she knows that you arrived safely.

    Wishing you peace, strength, and comfort until you are all reunited again…

    Love, Hugs and Chocolate Labby kisses,
    Ellen and Charley

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